Turkey Vulture, photo by Elizabeth Barakah Hodges |
Back in the 1980s, when I was working as a program assistant for the University Extension division of the University of California at Berkeley, I made the mistake of reading Lew Welch’s poem Song of the Turkey Buzzard on my lunch hour.
who heard it
the first
time
Praises, Tamalpais,
Perfect in Wisdom and Beauty,
She of the Wheeling Birds
I.
The rider riddle is easy to ask,
but the answer might surprise you.
How desperately I wanted Cougar
(I, Leo, etc.)
brilliant proofs: terrain,
color, food, all
nonsense. All made up.
They were always there, the
laziest high-flyers, bronze-winged,
the silent ones
"A cunning man always laughs and smiles,
even if he's desperately hungry,
while a good bird always flies like a vulture,
even if it is starving."
(Milarepa sang)
Over and over again, that sign:
I hit one once, with a .22
heard the "flak" and a feather flew off, he
flapped his wings just once and
went on sailing. Bronze
(when seen from above)
as I have seen them, all day sitting
on a cliff so steep they
circled below me, in the up-draft
passed so close I could see his
eye.
Praises, Tamalpais,
Perfect in Wisdom and Beauty,
She of the Wheeling Birds
Another time the vision was so clear another saw it, too.
Wet, a hatching bird, the shell of the egg streaked with dry scum,
exhausted, wet, too weak to move the shriveled wings, fierce
sun-heat, sand. Twitching, as with elbows (we all have the same
parts). Beak open, neck stretched, gasping for air. O how we
want to live!
"Poor little bird," she said, "he'll never make it."
Praises, Tamalpais,
Perfect in Wisdom and Beauty,
She of the Wheeling Birds
Even so, I didn't get it for a long long while. It finally came
in a trance, a coma, half in sleep and half in fever-mind. A Turkey
Buzzard, wounded, found by a rock on the mountain. He wanted
to die alone. I had never seen one, wild, so close. When I reached
out, he sidled away, head drooping, as dizzy as I was. I put my
hands on his wing-shoulders and lifted him. He tried, feebly, to
tear at my hands with his beak. He tore my flesh too slightly to
make any difference. Then he tried to heave his great wings. Weak
as he was, I could barely hold him.
A drunken veterinarian found a festering bullet in his side,
a .22 that slid between the great bronze scales his feathers were.
We removed it and cleansed the wound.
Finally he ate the rotten gophers I trapped and prepared
for him. Even at first, he drank a lot of water. My dog seemed
frightened of him.
They smell sweet
meat is dry on their talons
The very opposite of
death
bird of re-birth
Buzzard
meat is rotten meat made
sweet again and
lean, unkillable, wing-locked
soarer till he's but a
speck in the highest sky
infallible
eye finds Feast! on
baked concrete
free!
squashed rabbit ripened:
our good cheese
(to keep the highways clean, and bother no Being )
II.
Praises Gentle Tamalpais
Perfect in Wisdom and Beauty of the
sweetest water
and the soaring birds
great seas at the feet of thy cliffs
Hear my last Will & Testament:
Among my friends there shall always be
one with proper instructions
for my continuance.
Let no one grieve.
I shall have used it all up
used up every bit of it.
What an extravagance!
What a relief!
On a marked rock, following his orders,
place my meat.
All care must be taken not to
frighten the natives of this
barbarous land, who
will not let us die, even,
as we wish.
With proper ceremony disembowel what I
no longer need, that it might more quickly
rot and tempt
my new form
-
NOT THE BRONZE CASKET BUT THE BRAZEN WING
SOARING FOREVER ABOVE THEE O PERFECT
O SWEETEST WATER O GLORIOUS
WHEELING
BIRD
(From "Ring of Bone" by Lew Welch, Grey Fox Press, Bolinas, California)
I love this. Thank you so much. I have gone back and read your commentaries and they really bring the teaching alive for me! The photo of the turkey buzzard is great - but now that I read the poem in all its splendor, it is greater.
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Samuel, I clicked on your name and got to your profile, but I could find no way to contact you listed there. When I used the photo, I saw no indication of a copyright. I've now removed the photo. I do respect copyright and I apologize for my infringement.
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Please see my reply to your later post, above. Thank you.
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